We all have come across this word "misfit". If you don't know about it , let me tell you what it means. According to famous writer Lidia Yuknavitch , she gives the definition of a misfit, in one of her talks as "a person who just missed in fitting in " or "a person who fits in badly" or " a person who is poorly adapted to a new situation.
This has been a word which has been attached to me for a while now. I'm making this blog for all the misfits in the world including me. Having born in a family of poverty & abusive household can make your life living in a state of melancholy. This was when I felt the grief of losing myself. Losing confidence in one's self can turn the world upside down . It makes you feel like you don't fit in this world. Today's world has become so phony that everyone tries to pretend to be someone else just to fit in.
" Who the hell am I?".
"What is my worth?".
"Why am I like this ?".
This is what I have been asking myself for a long time now. I had been thinking of all the ways I had screwed up my life all this while .
Epic failure as a son to my mother & father.
The time I flunked in my college , epic failure as a student .
A job that does not interest me but had to pull myself together just to bring food to the table.
Girlfriend cheating on me for somebody who is much far better looking & rich.
This was the time I felt like a total loser.
I wished I weren't born in the first place to go through all this.
But this was all an excuse . The real deal of I being a misfit was I hadn't figured out a way to accept things and move on. All I'm trying to convey here is we as misfits , we carry our share of shame from our past and make our present and future miserable. We think we don't deserve better. We think we don't know what to hope for , or what to dream for , or choose an opportunity
that comes right in front of us just because we made ourselves believe that we just don't fit right in.
I have come out from a series of episodes of depression, rage , loneliness, anxiety ,
to tell all you legions of misfits out there that you are not alone . I had missed fitting out in every category life had offered me.
After realizing what was the root cause of my problem . I finally learned to coach myself in how to stand up for one's self . It was not possible to do it overnight but constant effort , determination and patience finally gave me the ability to re-invent myself.
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